Have you ever fallen back into a place you\'ve been before.
Only now it is too late to change and you cant escape
You wonder when the world will quit spinning...
and yet it never does and not even your optimism can help you now

You want to die but its not going to happen now..
The only thing you can do is make others happy
but soon you are homeless smiling for a nickle.
Then what, where do you turn

If I pray then will God drop an answer at my feet
or will he cryptically allow me to become Lot.
Will he answer no and watch me suffer or
Will he release me to my freedom from this pain...

The daily fall that has become a cycle...
it has become a daily activity of disgust
and now I cant climb on anything because it
has all fallen to a place I wish not to know....

Who then now? Where do I go? How do I get there?
I cant escape pain because I have no way out.
I feel to good for this world, I am above
money and poverty. I want to exist.

Even that is becoming a false reality....
I want to be an animal and run free....
When trouble comes, to stick my head in the sand
and to rejoice at the site of a single meal.

Yet, we will never make it to that point.
So quit sitting staring at the computer screen
It is no crystal ball, it has no fortunes for you
and get out there to find out what you are worth...

Eventually you will reach the point I have become...
The point where it has all fallen apart...
You will find yourself never knowing where you are going
and you will only love to be loved.

Get a job. Get a car. Get an Education.

Get a life.......

Maybe one day you will become all that you want to.
While the rest of us become all that you despise.....................